am i anti-social? sometimes... i really think i am sometimes... it's like... i like hanging out with all my friends.. but then sometimes, i just wanna stay home... and not be bothered... well, i think it's most of the time... which is really bad... cuz then i'd miss out on a night of fun...

life seems so meaningless right now... it's like routine stuff everyday... i go to class... i come home... do hw... and then go to bed... and on weekends... i go to the laundromat... i come home... go to church... come home. who do i really talk to? whe i do talk to people online... it's like... small talk... catching up stuff... nothing really deep... and who do i share my thoughts with? do i even have thoughts? kinda weird having nothing happening in your life... your life is just DULL...

the past highlights of my days were reading the huge responses i got on my guestbooks... but then that died down... what else can i look forward to? hard to say... can't be an admirer of ANY sort cuz i have none! and that is because? i don't go out! i don't socialize! arghhhh.... i'm a bum! i need to go out more!