yipppeee.... skippeee..... I'm taking a vacation tomorrow! hurray!!! well, i'm driving back up to michigan to drop jeying off and also to pick up the rest of my crap that i left there... hehe.

today, when i was taking out the two rear seats in the van to fit more luggage... i heard this loud loud argument... my neighbors across the street that i despise. they look down at us cuz we're asian, and say crap about us when we park our cars temporarily on the streets. yes, i know we have a garage, but why bother when i'm leaving in 5 mins? and it's not like she has a car either... probably too poor to afford one anyways! and also, she told on me last time when i accidently hit a car... and then left... i didn't think it was a dent at all... so i just left... but then she copied down my license number. freakin A. but anyways...made me pay $500 for damages that i did not do. whatever.

back to today. i have no idea what she was arguing over... some guy... ringing her doorbell disrespecting her or something... i think it's her daughter's friend... so she was bitching them out... or whatever... and then she used the word... edjumacation. hahaha. i would have never thought people would use it in a serious content.. until today. "i provide her with edjumacation... and you come ringing mah doorbell, disrespecting me, who the f--- do you think you is? who the f--- do you think you IS?" muhahahha.... hahahaha.... lower class trash. i hate her. gives me the chance to look down at her. ha. thinks she's all that... but she can't even speak proper grammar. whatever man. so uneducated. pah.

so i'm evil. i don't care. they have caused me too much pain and anger. so ha! damn all you neighbors of 79st!

great. i'm beginning to have this gross feeling in my gut. i'm a loser. i'm a bum. it's my cry for help! i need a job!!! help me someone. i'm competitive, and i don't like seeing others work while i'm a bum working at the laundromat... arghhhh... and alice has a job now... and i have nothing... i love my baby! she is sooooo cute... ugh, i can't take it... she is just soooo darn cute. everytime i think of her... i smile to myself... she's my baby... and she's working already... at such a young age... teehehehehehehe.... ahhhh.... i'm so proud of her man... she's the cutest. i can't get over how cute she is sometimes... hehehe.

i've decided, there's nothing i hate more than cheap people... freakin cheap about EVERYTHING. they cheat their way out of paying, they grup, and they moooooooch. i hate moochers. have they no shame? man, how can they stand being so mad ass cheap? have they no shame? or do they not know they're mooching??? i hate moochers. and i hate rich people who are cheap... even though they are better off than others, they still mooch and save. ugh. disgusting. they are society's deadweight. worthless.

teeeheeeheeee....

SHOUT OUT TO LILGOLFBOI for always signing my guestbook!
Keep it coming. I'm loving the responses...!

She cried... eyes throbbing,
pain, relentlessly tugging at her heart.
Her smile, no longer placed on her face,
but still in heart.
She swallowed hard.
A billion thought and apologies raced through her mind.
My Child, I have raised you well.
I am proud of you.
Yet I am nevertheless distressed.
I have not provided you with enough.
You work harder than your friends
to obey me and accept who you are
and what you have.
Although my heart aches
everytime I think of what you have given up at such an age...
My Child, I am proud of you.
A million kisses and thousand thank you's...

It bugs the heck out of me. I hate drama queens. why do they always have to get attention. it's like in every lil way, they try to do something stupid to get their freakin attention... maybe no one cares? maybe we are fed up with drama queens... don't they get it? so i blog on wilmot, which i should have blogged on my own.... damn. all these responses about fobs. whatever. they wanna act stupid, they act stupid... they're just playing themselves... trying to blog as a fob... that is just outright rude and inconsiderate. i can't stand inconsiderate people who think they're above it all, and has not guts to put their REAL names on. pah.

...sigh... yet another week, and no blogs. what am i to do with myself, i guess it was just a phase, or a fad... that will soon die out.

i've decided, I need a man. hahaha. i'm bored. and i have nothing to entertain me on weekends except my chinese tapes and my sisters. i didn't go clubbing tonite... was planning to, but my friends didn't want to... they wanted to go to bars... i didn't feel like going to that either... but i wanted to see if lisa was okay... sounded real depressed on the phone... hopefully, she'll be better soon.... we're rooting for you lisa!!!

if i were white... would i get more guys? would i have the guts to pick up guys? sigh...

This is better than a journal. Ah... so much faster than writing everything down...

I need a job. I need to move out. Yes, I've said it so many times, and you'd think I'd find a job by now... sigh... i'm a loser... I can't take it at home no more... the nasty argument with my mom is yesterday is making things worse... like i will just be a good lil girl and obey her when she's being soooo mean. i always do the opposite... if you're being mean to mean, i'll be nastier to you... so her meanness ain't gonna stop me from being defiant. i want to move out, then i probably won't be stuck in her many moods and fits. perhaps i get it from her. she is just impossible and unreasonable. i need to be financially independent. then i wouldn't have to listen to how we should be helping out at the laundromat gratefully. pah. i don't think you'd find kids like us anymore, serving the laundromat and it's beast 24/7. what are my friends doing now? hmmm... they're in they city having fun, enjoying each other's company, while i, just having gotten home... all groggy and sweaty from working. what more does she want. i don't even bother going out cuz it would just be a hassle and she would just nag about me going out. blah. so i am rather the antisocial person nowadays. why suffer the pain right?

Sigh.... The World Hates Me.

Yes, yet another one of those.... nobody loves me, and i'm-all-alone phases... Jong-Ju knows full well about these mood swings. I usually get this.... once in a blue moon. haha. yeah, right, I think I get them all the time. It just feels like I'm not being appreciated, and that everything I do is wrong, and I upset people easily because I'm a bad person, and I'm selfish, and I don't think of others when I do things. I'm childish. I thought I have matured through college, but I am letting myself slip backwards. I'm childish. I get in these fits... I just want attention!!! ARgh, and nothing is going right. and I REALLY REALLY need a job... so i can be financially independent, and live by myself. so i don't have to deal with people. I'd be happy all by myself... and detached from everyone... and it's kinda sad to know that I can just pick up and go, and not really miss anyone... well, except my family sometimes... hehehe. sigh... I'm the most difficult person to deal with in the world. I can't even deal with myself.

Do people take dumps at the office? What would make them do such a thing? Do they get embarrassed? Or do they not care?

So. The question is... Who should pay for the DATE?

Answer to this question: Of course, the guy!!! and if the guy is too cheap to pay for it, then leave him.

WOOHOO. consistency in blogging. yes!

I was just talking to my friend on AIM about a certain topic that is rather amusing. When should a guy call a girl after their first date? He said he was going to wait a week! and i said, the next day, or 2 days later... From my perspective, since i don't call at all... i want the guy to call immediately. hehehe, well, only if i like him that is, and if i am willing to go on that first date with him, i must like him to an extent. cuz i would not date a loser. hehe. Guys should call everyday. Even if they think it's too much... okay, maybe not everyday, but like every other day or just sporadically, spontaneously. I like that. or just whenever he's thinking about me... This is the problem with guys... they think... if the girl likes me enough, it wouldn't matter when i call... but it does matter... it drives us crazy when they don't call... we think... what's going on? maybe he likes someone else already... maybe he thought i was boring... blah... i guess that's kinda schizo... but i'm a worry-bug, so i can't help it....

hahaha, i'm a fool, i just figured out where all my other blogs went... hahaha.... it went to another page... stupid me... so here are more of my thoughts...

i realize this... i am extremely rude to those who get on my bad side, and i have no intention of hiding it... perhaps i buffer it for people sometimes when i don't want them to know, or cuz if they knew, the situation would chaotic. and all hell would break lose. hahaha. yeah, and jeying was trying to convince me that i'm fake. puhlease. i can't hide my anger or annoyance too well... i thought i could. but i don't. i just gotta say what i feel, even if it's rude. but i think the rudeness is still buffered, to an extent, i mean, it could be worse... who knows, maybe i AM a real bitch... ah. no one would believe that. hahaha. or would they?

argh. i just posted a whole long blog... this is sooo annoying... what is going on with my shortcut blogthis! bookmarklet?!?!?! sucks man... and i just told about a whole day of fun... darn it... well, basically, alice bitched out some old guy out of a parking spot that we were waiting for.... stupid guy just swerved right in... but me and alice weren't going to stand to that... we're aggressive asian mamas... hahaha. alice asked me... "jeyi, you wanna say something? you wanna say something?" i said "hell yeah!" so she hopped off the car with a bang on the door... and marched straight up to the old couple ready to get out of their car... "we saw this spot first. you had your left blinker on, and we had our right blinker on." (the bastard, he cut in front of us so quick... i didn't even have the chance to honk more than once) and so he starts explaining... but... but... hahaha... alice wasn't going to stand to that... she was like "i don't care, we were here first, get out of our space." hahaha... and so they had to back out and give us the spot... woohooo!!!! we won a mighty battle! they probably thought since we were young asian girls that we'd be passive and let him have the spot! no. that's aint' happening. i'm sooo proud of alice, i have taught her well! hahahaha. i would have done the same thing, except even bitchier, but since i was in the driver's seat... hahaha, alice did the dirty deed... hahahaha.... dude, i wouldn't have been so mad if it wasn't saturday, lunch hour... where parking is close to impossible! they deserved it! hahaha... or we would have popped their wheels.... hahaa.....