great. why does everyone think i look shallow and superficial? maybe they're just jealous i have more zits than them...

Greg was telling us about this article that listed some of the worst jobs in the world... one of them, included lab techs who had to jerk off animals...

A day in the life of a lab technician:

Jenetic69: eeeew. do male mice even have penises?
Jenetic69: i guess they have one....but it must be awfully small...i guess i would jack them off with like needlenose pliers or something

jurisdiction, contradiction,
yet another fraction of my eradication.
satisfaction, practication,
all in conjuncture with life's malifaction...

how did i come to this demise? i blog about nothing... i complain about everything.

so i finished reading a book this past week... i think the last time i read a book was... in school? i don't even think i finished the books from school... oh wait, i remember now... this is my first book since... Hegemon's Shadow... those of you who haven't read it... go buy it!!! it's good... and Jon, i know you wanna read this... you gotta!!! or i can lend you the book when you travel back to the states again... or perhaps when i visit asia....

Summer Sisters by Judy Blume.
The book had definite affects on me... it got me thinking alot... The main character, Vix, brought up a lot of good points and analogies about life... like script writers or authors... revise... and shred. revise and shred. what if i can revise and then shred away all the parts i didn't like about my life? what would i do different? I would definitely revise the way I treated guys I liked... rather than giving them the "cold shoulder" or the "you can't tell what i'm feeling" gig.... and then shred the horrible horrible dumb things i did freshmen year... hong knows what i'm talking about... hahaha... and perhaps shred that part when Carol made me cry cuz of dumb bodyworship crap... or accepting a guitar from mr.swarthy... perhaps shred away the 15 or so lbs i gained in college as well... hahaha...

okay, i'm at work now... i have a computer today... although it's pretty scary... cuz it's some sorta special Bloomberg computer, and has the quotes page up and running all the time... they actually use AIM at this office! amazing huh? the bad thing is, i can't sign on to my name, cuz i need to page them with phone calls and stuff... oh wells... i'll have to deal and use email like mad. hahaha...

to derek ma:

one day... 4 years...

din·gle·ber·ry [díng g'l bèree ] (plural din·gle·ber·ries) noun
small piece of dried feces: a small piece of dried feces that clings to the hair or fur near the anus (slang)

I'm crying out in outrage... What a bunch of dingleberry bastards!!!

IF Any of you have car insurance... always trust the BIG companies... like Allstate and such... don't ever go with any cheap-ass, half-assed company called TRAVELERS. they have the absolute worst services. I'm going to kill Nicholas Basile!!! It's been OVER a month, and he still hasn't taken care of my claim...
what the hell is wrong with him? and he's out of the office indefinitely!!! and freakin CLOSED my claim!!! what the hell?!?!?! useless bastards... calls me once
a week to tell me that he didn't receive the police report that i faxed like 5 billion times!!!! I'm gonna kill someone over there. they just don't get it. ugh.

My mom only switched to travelers cuz her friend is an insurance broker, trying to help her out and shit... but what do we get??? useless lil companies that can't
take care of jack. screw TRAVELERS.

man, i have to wake up soooo early tomorrow morning... 7:30... i sure hope i get a computer to myself... it'll be 10 hrs of hard work as a receptionist! hahaha...
meanwhile... for your enjoyment, i put up a new site.. just for pics... hahaha...

www.xanga.com/jeyi99

okay, i apologize for one of my previous blogs... most of my friends are down to earth... yes... but the examples i listed were those of the EXTREME... so yes, chrissy, you are a low key DTE person... hehehe...

woohoo.. i have voiced my pain and agony of needless frostbites... i received permission from the dad to turn it up when i'm cold... muhahahaha.... and the plot thickens.

i have done it. i ventured upstairs... slowly, and quietly... i turned up the thermostat!
yesh! i feel that extra two degrees of warmth... muhahahaha....

what i need to get alice for her next bday:

CLEAN SOCKS

hahaha... and my response poem...

See you laughing. Ha.
You ain't laughin' no more.
I killed you. sucka.
wits. you've got none.
Brains? Bigger Laugh!
Think twice ova what you do to me.
Fool.


muhahahaha.... "tian zhu wo ye"

dude, i just found this poem that JING wrote a while ago(5.13.01)... muhahaha....

Roses are Red,
Violets are Blue,
Don't mess with me,
I'm Je-Yi Leu.

hmmmm.... boredom... what should i do?!?!?!

do i blog because i'm vain? am i vain because i blog??? am i blogging as a call for help? this blogger is all about me. me. me. what can i say? i'm vain. muhahahahaha..
lisa told me this is what she loves about me... i'm not fake, i don't front. yes, i'll admit i'm vain, yes, i'll admit i'm superficial... who isn't? but the scary thing is admitting it. wow... i'm so absorbed into my own boring life... i should get a life. i should get a bf. but how??? i'm outta college. i have no friends. well, or i don't really hang out with them... cuz i'm locked in half the time... erg.

you ever have friends where... you haven't seen them in sooo long, and they seem soooo excited to see you... give you this HUGE hug... smile... and then... that's it? I feel like I have so many of those friends at mich... or are they really friends? nah... acquaintances. i hate acquaintances... it's soooo bleh... but i guess i'm the same way... so i shouldn't be complaining... but i have this friend, Martin... he's so down to Earth, sooooo real... he seems soooo excited to see you... and he actually is excited. there's more than that initial hug, more than that initial "how are you? good... you?" i must say... Martin and Leslie are by far the most down to Earth people i know... that's what so cool about them... there's no "i'm only an acquaintance and don't care much more" smile... ahhhh... wait, i must be forgetting some other people... but those two are the ones that stick out in my head right now... oh wait... Eric Agustin... yeah... those three.

this boredom is killing me...

i wish one of my friends had a female dog... and gave birth... and so i can get one for free...

I'm bored... I have nothing to do... it's Saturday... snowing... still freezing... and my two best friends are not in town... what a bleh day...

I actually picked my ass up today... and walked outta the house... wooohooo... yeah, i woke up really late this afternoon... and was craving Dunkin Donuts... mmmm..... yep... so i had to have some... I still can't believe I walked there... since i'm soooo lazy... i would've driven there... but since it's snowing really hard.. it woulda taken a lot longer for me to drive there then walk... yesh! my lazy streak is over?!?!?! hahaha... i think not... it's so freezing cold outside... i don't even wanna go clubbing tonite... but do i ever? not really...

i was reading a blogger of someone at church... she has the funniest page ever... dude, the reason she blogs is to cheer everyone up... and look at my page.. all depressin and shit like that..

omg... wow... my dad... yes, my DAD, went out and bought us BOBA.... what the hell is going on!?!!!?!? muhahahaha.... although it tastes like crap... just for future reference, don't ever get BOBA from Fay Da... cuz it tastes really bad... i mean, i actually taste the Sugar granules on the bottom... and the bubbles have no taste!!!

hahaha... i just took this test at thespark.com.... and I'm...

You know your house is an IGLOO when:

1. you don't feel your nose or fingers most of the time
2. the down comforter and another blanket you have on your bed isn't enough
3. your lips and hands are constantly chapped and purple
4. you feel gusts of wind sitting near windows
5. you feel gusts of wind sitting on the floor
6. you light candles for warmth
7. hot tea is your favorite COLD drink
8. you still have on the coat and scarf you were wearing before you came in the house
9. the closest thing to heat is your blow dryer
10. you wear gloves when typing at the computer
11. you don't need the fridge to keep drinks cold
12. you constantly have a cold, and Robitussin is your best friend
13. you wear sweats and socks to sleep
14. you put on a sweatshirt to go to the bathroom
15. you run hot water over your pulse just for that short five minutes of heat

hahaha... my friend just sent me this email... and it's sooooo true!

Who understands men?
1. The nice men are ugly.
2. The handsome men are not nice.
3. The handsome and nice men are gay.
4. The handsome, nice and heterosexual men are married.
5. The men who are not so handsome, but are nice men, have no money.
6. The men who are not so handsome, but are nice men with money think we are only after their money.
7. The handsome men without money are after our money.
8. The handsome men, who are not so nice and somewhat heterosexual, don't think we are beautiful enough.
9. The men who think we are beautiful, that are heterosexual, somewhat nice and have money, are cowards.
10. The men who are somewhat handsome, somewhat nice and have some money and thank God are heterosexual, are shy and NEVER MAKE THE FIRST MOVE!!!!
11. The men who never make the first move, automatically lose interest in us when we take the initiative.

NOW ....WHO IN THE HELL UNDERSTANDS MEN?
Men are like fine wine. They all start out like grapes, and it's our job to stomp on them and keep them in
the dark until they mature into something you'd like to have dinner with.

i am quite outraged and upset that my blogbuddy don't work no more... ugh... and the blogthis! marklet doesn't work either! erg....

so anyways... i got off of work today... real ass early... 2pm.. and had to meet leslie at Sago, in macy's, at 6:30pm... i bought a newspaper... and actually read it... hahaha... ya know... reading the news does make one a lot smarter... and you have more to say when things come up in conversations that are relevant... pwahahaha...

so anyways... i thought this lil even was quite interesting... as i was walking to the train station after meeting with leslie... i kept my head down, as i always do.... and i saw a shiny quarter! yeah... couldn't let that one pass me by right? if it's a penny, i usually let it pass... but a quarter! what are the chances? ahahaha... yeah, i think i've grown to be a lil obnoxious... as i picked it up... i noticed myself being embarrassed... i looked around to see if anyone was watching... then put my head down low again, so no one would see my face... what is wrong with me??? i'm ashamed of picking up spare change on the floor??? hehehe... i'm poor! and every penny counts right? it's only a quarter you say? no, it comes in handy when you need that extra quarter for parking... but why was i embarrassed? sigh... maybe i'm too old to be picking up spare change?

for those of you who don't believe in evil mothers... ahem... i beg to differ...

My mom intentionally would not lend me the car because she doesn't want me to go out. How messed up is that??? MESSED UP.

"i was freakin asleep, until you fucken stuck your stupid dumb finger up my nose!"

i've noticed the dryness of my recent blogs... perhaps i can be more entertaining... hahaha... no, i can't.. i live a bland life, yet, more stressful than meets the eye. or perhaps you can gather information from the eye? see these zits and pimples all over my forehead? yes, i can count them... adds up to more than 10! holy freakin guacamole!!!! yes, it's stress. stress from the good old mother of mine... i told her that this morning too... but i think she doesn't take me seriously.... hahaa... she laughs it off... oh wells...

alice is asleep right now... what if i stuck my finger up her nose right now? muhahaha... yeah, she's sleeping on my bed tonite... cuz i got that featherbed thing, and it's soooo warm... (although i don't feel the warm sometimes... cuz it's sooooo freakin cold in my house... cuz asians don't believe in heat) and it's freezing in her room cuz her window is broken somehow... and it's... as of this moment... taped up with this plastic clear thingy, to kinda filter some of the cold down... psshhh.... like that would work? reminds me of my apartment in michigan... the windows were paper thin... and mad old... and so when you're sleeping... you can actually feel the gusts of wind blowing at your head at nite... now there's a cheap man... Ralph. damn ass cheap. you would think i'm in the basement with the boiler that it would be a lil warmer... but no! i'm freezing to death right now... yet i'm still typing away on the computer with half frozen hands... and my nose can hardly feel it's existence anymore... i'm freezing!

alright, who wants to get me Les Miserables tickets??? hehehe... sale until 3.8.02. must take advantage of it.

i know most of you are responding to me in regards to the vulgarness of this "anonymous" commentator... no fret... it's just one of my many admirers who turned sour cuz i rejected them... muahahahaha.... yeah, and he'll probably blog something mean again, and say i wish he was my admirer... but really, we all know it's true... a love turned sour... need i say more?

hehe... went to see Phantom of the Opera tonite... finally! dude, after 4 years of planning and talking about it... without actually going through with it... finally saw it with lisa, and ruth.... it was good! although i think i would have enjoyed it a bit more if i wasn't so tired... i was falling asleep in some parts... but they had really good songs... it was good! hehe... most people thought the girl was a messed up playa at the end... but hey, no one wants no freak of nature right? hahaha... i will give it 4 stars! (out of 5)

you ask for respect, yet you do not give it.
you're spoiled, and i have part in it.
you look down on others, trample on them.
relentless as you are, boys still fall for your facad.
you move from one best friend to another...
isn't that enough clue to who you really are?
no one can withstand your attitude.
no, you are not the shit.
hanging out with older crowds would not
make you a better person, neither would the
timbs you wear. you conformed to the
asian way. you think you're black. but you're
just a lump of coal.
so you think your secrets are worth keeping?
you tell the world before telling those who care
about you the most... the truth is meant to be
kept. but do you keep them yourself?
your lies had others entrust in you... yet
you turn around and bite them. don't act
like you're their best friends when in reality
you just want their secret to tell the others.
i'm sick of your flirtatious ways.
don't flirt in church, and don't play it dumb.
your secret lies are bound to explode.
poems? this is not a poem. perhaps your
rhyming poems would be considered poems.
you think you write poems, but all you can
do is write hurtful things.
you fail to understand the feelings that others
DO possess. you're an actress of sorts.
mommy's lil darling while laughing at the distress
of your siblings. covering up guilt with material
goods would not make you a better person.
you are who you are.

Ode to Mommy Dearest

Eat Shit.

if you are all wondering who the hell crazy J is... well, don't bother.. cuz it's just some retard from Asian Avenue that no one knows or cares about anyways...

okay, i'm going to write a happy thought... i've been getting a lot of bad responses... my page is NOT scary... hehe... well, i don't really have a happy thought right now though... jeying is leaving tomorrow... how sad... for the first time, i'm actually gonna miss her... yeah... gonna miss her serving me... hahaa... she's such a good sister though... and also a very good daughter... definitely a good influence on me and alice... although i think we're really bad influences on her... she keeps trying to curse, even though she sounds weird cursing... hahaha...

on another note, i've decided to quit my brokering training... i really don't see a future for myself in it... i know i would have to start from the bottom... and that would mean cold calling for several months... i just can't wait around earning pennies anymore... i'm going to be practical and grab a half-assed temp job... at least i'll have money to go out right? yeah... and go on a shopping spree.... it's rather depressing... everyone asks me how the training is going... and all i have to say to them is... i quit. i'm a quitter... i always quit even before trying it out... and it's the same way with relationships... i quit half way through... too afraid to go on... to afraid to let someone else know me... what am i afraid of anyways?

it seems to be inevitable i mess up my face every winter... sigh... now it's all red and swollen... i don't know what i did!!! maybe i got windburned from new year's eve... or maybe it was that face balancer thingymahjig... dunno... could be an allergic reaction? man... it hurts soooo much... i can't even put lotion on it... cuz it just sears... i can't go out either cuz it's burned soo badly... ugh... hehe... i think my mom takes joy out of my pain... sigh... i can't even wash my face with cleanser... just water... make this pain go away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!